I CAN'T CONTROL IT.
I can't seem to control anything.
I can't control my feelings.
My timing is so off.
Or am I just confused?
Do I even know what i'm feeling?
Do I even know if i'm actually feeling these things?
I feel lost.
I don't know which are right
And which are wrong.
Part of me knows that not all of these feelings are real.
I am fooling myself.
I am making myself think that I want it all.
And making myself feel as though I have nothing.
It's strange, it doesn't feel too bad.
But bad things could happen if I don't get in control.